The Quitting Smoking Chronicles: Part I

so it begins.....

now i have said this before, i have smoked my last cigarette, even as i write this my nicotine addled brain attempted to put the word 'not' in before 'smoked', this is the way of nicotine, i have done this before, i quit for a year, only stress and the wrong situation caused me to want to start up again, i have been saying for awhile that i want to quit, but saying and doing are two very different things, but when i found out the price went up to 7.25 a pack, well, i just cant justify, or afford to pay that much, the downside is the first three days, this is when the physical and psychological affects of the addiction attack, those that havent ever smoked do not understand, i have smoked for over ten years, making it even that much harder, last time i quit i wrote myself through it all, had a blog on a myspace that no longer exists, it was my own journal of quitting, the people that read that thought i was crazy and for the first few days of it i was, you go through mood swings, thoughts become erratic, and your will is bent on one thing only, nicotine, they have found that nicotine is more addictive than the addictive ingredients in cocaine and heroin, now does that mean the withdrawl is worse??? no, but it is as hard if not harder to kick, in its own ways........ so i just smoked my last cigarette about a half-hour ago....... i will document my progress here......... edition one of the quitting chronicles........ and one last thing, i must remember the positives of quitting, i never felt better, things smelled better and tasted better and i just felt healthier and had more energy, this means a summer of kickball and basketball......... so here goes.....