nerves

i get so nervous sometimes, and it sucks, i really wish i didnt and it usually involves the females of the species, if i could just be myself im sure it would be no problem, i think part of it stems from anticipation and the hope that things will be cool and go smoothly, but then my nerves take over and it all becomes weird, i dont know why this happens so much to me, maybe its because i have met so many women online, so you get to know them, already think they are rad and hope the same, what i havent seemed to realize is that they wouldnt be hangin with ya in the first place if they didnt feel the same way, but it all still just leaves me lonely and girl-less, which sucks, i just wish i had more self-confidence and believed in myself a bit more, ive gotten better about it lately which makes me think eventually it will all work out and happen, but still it has overcome me, im done with the online shit though, that shit is for the birds......... just lame when you meet someone cool and then act like a total goober and ruin it..........