a lot goin on in the old brain as of late

and a lazy saturday afternoon to display some thoughts and ideas, though really im just effing bored and wanted to write about stuff, will it be interesting, who knows, i guess that is up to the interpretation of the audience, which at this point is somewhat unknown.............. for some reason my writing style is enjoyed by others, but its so so so silly it doesnt make sense, i just drone on and on, with these ridiculous run on sentences that stretch into paragraphs and pages of random thoughts and shit........ as far as the whole quitting smoking thing is concerned, well, that is all done with i guess, i have been quit for over two weeks, and while i do have some mild desires to return to it, this is all pretty natural, and i wont let myself, i want to not do it, for so many reasons, so bye bye smoking......... along with this i have had kind of a crazy couple of weeks, and when i say crazy i mean crazy, like legitimately crazy, this may not be seen by many, but some who are close to me know what this is about, especially those that have cared enough to find out, its funny sometimes when you try to open up to some that they just kind of say, 'oh, um, yeah, well, good luck with all that!', whereas others are genuinely willing to listen and be there for support and all.......... people are funny like that, of course there are others that im choosing not to share with, which is why im being so vague right now......... but really the main thing on my mind over the past few days has been her........ wow....... i dont even really know what to say....... just so freaking rad......... just wish she was around more......... oh well, patience i suppose, patience, too bad my thoughts are not patient....................................... we shall see though hmmmm? but after that night, well, lets say im fairly confident at this point.......... anyways, things have been quite tough for me lately but are going in good positive directions....... alright toodle-oos y'all........