i have found....

that lately i have been getting a weird feeling in my stomach, i do not know what it comes from, it is not hunger, it is not a medical problem, it is something more, i feel nervous and weird a lot, i think a lot of this comes from my head, for those that dont know me as well as you might think, my head is constantly flooded with thoughts, thoughts that totally pollute me as a person, not in a bad way but there is just always so much bouncing around in my head and i rarely share these things, i think one reason is because i highly doubt anyone would truly understand, but also because oftentimes i have no one to share these thoughts with, but i dont know that i would want to, in fact, i dont even know if i can fully understand how to vocalize these thoughts of mine, this is one way, i am very good at the run on sentences (probly doesnt help that im a minimalist when it comes to punctuation, though i do like the 'theses), but lately i have just had a weird feeling in my stomach to say the least, and i dont like it at all, i think it is because i am still uncomfortable with a lot of things, im not sure how to pinpoint exactly what, and that is the hard part about it, but the things i think are oftentimes not the things i say, but i dont necessarily think that i want to always express these things...... anyways yeah, just been weird, but i have been going through a lot of changes lately and think i am still going through a very unstable time in my life, it is slowly but surely getting to be more solid, but for now, still a little shaky on my feet....... i will just keep on keeping on i guess, more ramblings of a madman