hunting

no not in the traditional sense, thats just silly and dumb (although with the way of the economy nowadays......) i mean for things you shouldnt have to hunt for.

right now i am in the process of attempting to make a lasting female friend, the kind with benefits, as well as trying to find a place to live in, both, i am finding, are extremely difficult.....

house hunting, or rather room hunting sucks, so many fucking ads say hey this place is awesome, we are awesome, but then they start throwing stipulations in there, like no smokers (i mean come on i wont do it inside thats gross, and if kept outside, how does it really affect you or the house you live in?) or they want you to be some amazingly bohemian artist who creates and probably moved here from fucking texas or something, someone who is in the know and dresses fucked up just to garner attention and slaps a keep portland weird bumper sticker on their car, its just so fucking dumb. then you have to go and meet these random people and hope to wow them enough and make them feel comfortable enough with you while meeting them in an extremely awkward and nerve racking situation to get them to let you move in knowing they are gonna just meet some smooth talking texan who will seem so fucking cool but probably wont do their fucking dishes or pay bills on time or some shit. i dunno, the whole thing is just frustrating, but yes i will keep on keepin on, i know eventually i will find the perfect place and things will be fine, and they will be happy with me and me with them, at least this is what i keep telling myself.......

as for women, man, it is very similar to house hunting, at least the way i go about it, although i have run into this phenomenon lately which really fucking confuses me, i have in person gotten two girls phone numbers after seemingly good conversations with them, good enough that they gave me their phone numbers, and the numbers werent fake, they gave me their fucking number, so i call them, dont hear anything back, i mean i dunno it seems i hear all the time that guys in portland have no balls and never ask for numbers, well HELLO ladies, maybe its because when they do ask for your number and call you, you never fucking respond, i mean we already had our balls suck up into our abdomen in order for us to ask for your number in the first place without getting so nervous that your voice doesnt get shaky making you seem less confident, AND we made first contact with you AFTER that, the least you could do is call back and at least give a lame excuse and say not interested, i mean at least that is much better than A) not responding (hint to the ladies: if you arent going to respond, dont give your number out in the first place, saying no is a perfectly acceptable response, you dont have to feel bad about it, its part of being a guy and asking for a number, we are used to rejection.....) and B) responding and saying yeah i wanna hang out ill call you back and keeping that going and then falling off the fucking planet...... that is the lamest shit ever, aside from that the whole semi-blind personal ads date thing is kind of fun, but very hit or miss, i still dont know if im very keen on that, but considering my lack of luck with "real life encounters" at least the online women are willing to set up a date.......

fuck

but really other than that life is good, sorry to bitch and moan, just needed to let these things be known :)